TgrLady's Journal

been busy - trying to stay focused on what needs to get done and when.

and then... I got super sick last night - I won't go into details but my head hurts and I feel like crap.

I did a LOT more decorating at the house... MUCH LOVE to the Halloween group on here - for pointing out all the great stuff out there at dollar stores and .99 cent stores!! :) I get compliments all the time on stuff I've found from there! And my Halloween collection grows!

It's Friday - woo hoo - just wish I felt better :(

I was looking at floral arrangements and table settings with the wedding coordinator and everything looked really really pretty!

well...

I'll leave you with this special Halloween quote on...

Murder

Lizzie Borden took an axe
And gave her mother forty whacks;
When she saw what she had done
She gave her father forty-one!

Anonymous

I bought a wedding dress yesterday! ... what a stressful thing - but I think being all alone during the chosing and purchasing was easier than having to make two or three people happy. I like it - which is what's important I suppose.

I've just been so bummed lately - and spending money isn't helping lol - sex is great - but doesn't help lift my spirits - I know I'm blessed and that I have so many things to be thankful for - but still... I feel almost... unworthy. This sucks and I hope it doesn't last too much longer - I have a party on Halloween and a wedding in February!

just me...

in my head!

but... I am stressing out about the marriage - the wedding - the house - the responsibilities - it's overwhelming!

I find myself getting upset at my fiance for no reason and taking everything personally - and I know it's just fear!

There are no happily married couples out there! lol - maybe they're together - but they're not happy! - and maybe they're content-enough - but they've separated or cheated on each other - and tried to just forget it and move on. Divorce is everywhere and cheating is too easy. I worry about our future and it's been such a fun relationship so far, but to think that it was all in vain - or would be in vain - scares me.

Oh well, I hope I don't do anything stupid and start sharing my feelings with others lol - they tend to panic - when sometimes I just need to let these scared, negative thoughts OUT!

Hey there personal journal that no one ever reads but me! lol

I did something stupid on wednesday - got drunk - for no reason and felt like crap that night and all of Thursday - what a dumbass! lol

oh well - no more alcohol for me - for a while! lol

back to work though - like - EVERYDAY! lol

today is Friday and I'll be doing some work this morning - maybe have lunch with friends... and then back home for the weekend! Tough call whether to stay here with my PS3 and fuzzies or to take them to the other house and plan on chilling out there for the weekend!?

oh well - I'm feeling pretty good today - hope to shower and get all fabulous! ;) ha ha

Gonna kick some butts in fantasy football this weekend - my team name "Ferrets of FURY!!" lol

much love to the universe!,
xoxo

Well - hello to the week - take two!

What a beautiful morning - 65 degrees outside and no rain in the forecast for a change! It's finally beginning to feel a little bit like autumn - putting me into Halloween mode more than ever! I can't wait for Halloween and our Haunted Housewarming Party!! I'm going to start seeing clients & meeting with parents as well today & tomorrow - possibly the rest of the week... I guess this is the week that I finally "start school" again. I spent yesterday in the rain reading "Understanding Depression" for some CEU hours here at home. It was depressing just reading about it! Last night's Monday Night Football game was AWESOME!! Dallas Cowboys kicked ass! he he What can I say - born & raised in Texas!! :) Spent it with my Love and had a great night. Here's to a great week ahead!

I'm in South Texas and the rain is unbearable!! STOP RAINING for crying out loud! My street's flooded and was flooded by 8:30 am. The weather reports say rain until at least 5 pm and it sucks!... yea... I'm just bitching.

ok - first attempt at keeping an online journal - since my written journal seems to have lapses of weeks in between updates and I'm online DAILY! lol

well let's see - football season - so my man is addicted to every mention of football - and is in two fantasy football leagues even convincing me to join one lol - so yea... now I have to pay attention too.

Speaking of football, you should see my nails! - I'm in Texas - So silver nails with the Dallas Cowboys star sticker in the middle and "diamonds" along the sides lol

I'm getting married in 6 months or so - and I have no dress - and no band... and the coordinator keeps forgetting to call me in for a meeting as I requested!... sucks!

We just bought a house this summer and that's great. The bills are ridiculous - but having your own place is just the BEST!

Loving Soul Caliber IV right now - customizing and earning all types of skills ... slowly. I feel like such a slacker - this being my first Soul Caliber game EVER!! I've played a couple of games online but they were vicious with me!! yikes~! I need more practice!

Oh well - enough for today!

:)